Four years
ago I was dying, three years ago I made the decision to stop. That’s when
I discovered nutrition, health , meditation and shortly thereafter the
institute. It has been the most difficult and challenging three years of
my life, not to mention horrifying, and painful balanced by incredible
rewards. It all started with the same question WHY? Why the abuse,
why the pain, why the liver problems, the joint problems, the neuromuscular,
why the hell is all this happening to me?
I went into this field for purely selfish reasons. I wanted to live pain
free, and maybe in the interim help slow down the disease process for the
people around me so I would not have to watch them die, or lose them before
it was time. The doctors, I felt had their own agenda and couldn’t figure
me out. If I was to gain control I needed to figure it out myself. I seem
to have gotten a lot more than I bargained for. The correlation’s, the
synergisity, the struggles, the living hell I frequently put myself through.
I guess it’s one of those be careful what you ask for…
I am still
frequently living with pain, but the physical reminds me that I still have
much to learn. I have become open and aware to whatever the universe chooses
to throw my way. I know most importantly, that I have not been invited
to a funeral since I started this leg of my journey (knock wood). I also
know in my own small way, that I Douglas John Morrison, through cause and
effect have shaped and continue to shape, the world, (in my own small way).
It’s hard
to nail down what I expect at this time of my journey, I’m not even sure
I want to have a practice. What I want is, a good life with a realistic
outlook, to be healthy, wealthy and wise.
(a vacation,
maybe twice a year wouldn’t be hard to take)
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